Talked to F last night. Laid out some rules. He agreed.
I still really like him. I hope I'm not making a mistake.
later:
Ran into C in bazaar. Said F wouldn't really hurt me, he just doesn't know it. She thinks pirates wouldn't blow up haulers though, so I'm not sure I can believe that.
C says the people who are close to them bring them back. Said Amy has same problem, but not to tell anyone.
Arranged that I would skip her party. I'm going to see if F is free that afternoon instead.
111.09.30
Asked H will I be safe around F. Finally got a straight answer. Not now, not soon.
Met Cia in the bazaar yesterday when getting lunch. She likes red necklace. She looks really sick, but pretending not. Says she's not pregnant.
Have rescheduled XO interview for today.
Mailed F. We have to talk. Need to decide what to say.
Met Cia in the bazaar yesterday when getting lunch. She likes red necklace. She looks really sick, but pretending not. Says she's not pregnant.
Have rescheduled XO interview for today.
Mailed F. We have to talk. Need to decide what to say.
111.09.29
Don't want to talk to F yet. Hiding cloaked in space. Sent query to H. She says can't talk about patient details. Says I should keep safe.
F is a nice person. I don't want to abandon him. But I don't want to be dead either.
Why can't H just answer the question?
F is a nice person. I don't want to abandon him. But I don't want to be dead either.
Why can't H just answer the question?
111.09.28
Asked F to stay again. F had nightmare. Nearly shot me. Very scary. F very sorry.
Couldn't let him leave on his own. F says safe if he doesn't sleep. F stayed awake till morning. Said goodbye at the hangar door.
Don't know what to do. Sent message to H asking for a talk.
Cancelled XO interview. Too tired.
Couldn't let him leave on his own. F says safe if he doesn't sleep. F stayed awake till morning. Said goodbye at the hangar door.
Don't know what to do. Sent message to H asking for a talk.
Cancelled XO interview. Too tired.
111.09.27
Still sleepy. Did lunch with H in bazaar. H is F's doctor. H says can't talk about F. She teased me
though. Says I should talk to F about when he got hurt.
Hoping to meet F later. Have interview for XO tomorrow.
though. Says I should talk to F about when he got hurt.
Hoping to meet F later. Have interview for XO tomorrow.
111.09.26
Slept a lot of the day. Went to the bazaar for lunch and three coffees. Spotted a lowsec hauling contract for 2.5m so did it. Client sent nice mail warning me about pirates. complete stranger convo'd me to offer blue status.
Hired Pama. She has hiring rights for engineering.
Met H again. Blooder lady saw us and cornered us. Called F. He sent station security to make sure we were safe. KJ showed up as well. Felt much safer. H seemed to enjoy talking with blooder lady.
I got away and went back to ship to sleep more. Mailed F and thanked him. Nice dreams.
Hope H is safe - arranged to meet her again for lunch.
Hired Pama. She has hiring rights for engineering.
Met H again. Blooder lady saw us and cornered us. Called F. He sent station security to make sure we were safe. KJ showed up as well. Felt much safer. H seemed to enjoy talking with blooder lady.
I got away and went back to ship to sleep more. Mailed F and thanked him. Nice dreams.
Hope H is safe - arranged to meet her again for lunch.
111.09.25
Did last minute shopping. F came to dinner. Had ship to ourselves. F still very handsome. Dinner was good, but didn't get as far as dessert.
Still not sure. F very understanding. V nice to hold. F stayed the night. No sleep. Got to see my nice underwear after all.
Cleaning up galley in morning was horrible.
Still not sure. F very understanding. V nice to hold. F stayed the night. No sleep. Got to see my nice underwear after all.
Cleaning up galley in morning was horrible.
111.09.24
Went shopping for makeup. Ended up buying a lot, but not sure why. Sales person I think.
Got home, looked in mirror, and wiped it all off.
At least I didn't buy any of the perfume.
Got home, looked in mirror, and wiped it all off.
At least I didn't buy any of the perfume.
111.09.23
F said he'd like to see the ship. Friday. Looking at it now, it's a bit grubby. Bother. Ordered food. Told crew to take night off. Slightly nervous.
Met Ms Pama Kitel. Sebiestor. Good Engineer qualifications. Almost as old as Ma. Family on Rens - wants to work closer to home. Need to decide in next day or two.
Ran into Helmi in bazaar. Says she's an engine tech. Was scoping out sight lines. Says I should keep practicing shooting as sometimes you have to kill people. Can't tell what she's thinking.
Met Ms Pama Kitel. Sebiestor. Good Engineer qualifications. Almost as old as Ma. Family on Rens - wants to work closer to home. Need to decide in next day or two.
Ran into Helmi in bazaar. Says she's an engine tech. Was scoping out sight lines. Says I should keep practicing shooting as sometimes you have to kill people. Can't tell what she's thinking.
111.09.22
Market orders very quiet. Need to put in more time. Nearly finished C's necklace.
No answer from F. He's probably busy.
Interviewing potential chief engineer tomorrow.
No answer from F. He's probably busy.
Interviewing potential chief engineer tomorrow.
111.09.21
Have started process to hire new crew from agency F recommended.
Sent F an invite to dinner. He said yes. Now have to decide where.
Have invited him to a restaurant in Rens, or Stranger in the Dark. I wonder which he'll choose.
Sent F an invite to dinner. He said yes. Now have to decide where.
Have invited him to a restaurant in Rens, or Stranger in the Dark. I wonder which he'll choose.
111.09.20
Went to Crystal boulevard. Got pretty hair cut. Met Cia and Helmi. Cia showed me shop on top level. Interesting. Bought some nice underwear and a massager. Nice Gallente lady offered to give me a massage, I declined.
Cia lent me a book on sex, with pictures and instructions. Must invite Fisk to dinner sometime.
Cia lent me a book on sex, with pictures and instructions. Must invite Fisk to dinner sometime.
111.09.19
More deliveries. Went to Crystal boulevard again. Bought Holo camera to take pictures of waterfall. Met a Mary nun. Says she's not that sort of nun. Said I should buy F a hat.
Flew back to Rens. Met A in Bazaar. Went clothing shopping. A says not to show F my underwear unless we're in a secure relationship and intimate.
Introduced KJ to A. Took picture of them together.
Flew back to Rens. Met A in Bazaar. Went clothing shopping. A says not to show F my underwear unless we're in a secure relationship and intimate.
Introduced KJ to A. Took picture of them together.
111.09.18
Shopped for present for F. Failed.
Carried a load of missiles and ammo to Luminaire. Pay is Ok.
Met bunch of people in Bazaar - Cia, Cami, CJ, KJ, Kenpatchy. Suspect Cia fancies KJ. Cia's party maybe in 2 weeks.
Visited Crystal Boulevard shopping for present for F. Other shoppers gave friendly advice. Suggested fancy underwear for me = present for F. Not sure about that.
Carried a load of missiles and ammo to Luminaire. Pay is Ok.
Met bunch of people in Bazaar - Cia, Cami, CJ, KJ, Kenpatchy. Suspect Cia fancies KJ. Cia's party maybe in 2 weeks.
Visited Crystal Boulevard shopping for present for F. Other shoppers gave friendly advice. Suggested fancy underwear for me = present for F. Not sure about that.
111.09.16
Met Andy in Bazaar. A's doing combat missions. Killing people. She's only had her licence a couple of days.
She said I was cool. WTF?
She said I was cool. WTF?
111.09.13
Went to dinner with F in a nice restaurant. Wore dress and high-heels. Very unsteady. F very handsome in uniform.
Went dancing afterwards. F surprised me with Zero-G dancing. Dress not such a good idea, but worked around it with help from F. Very nice.
Went dancing afterwards. F surprised me with Zero-G dancing. Dress not such a good idea, but worked around it with help from F. Very nice.
111.09.12 later
Went shopping for dresses again. Met new Caldari pilot. Andy someone. She's very bouncy but knows about dresses. Bought 2 dresses, shoes and handbag.
111.09.11
Walked through bazaar with F. Told him about accidentally telling C. No problem. Tell him about C's party. He looked worried.
Told F about leaving family. F told me story of Otro who was banished but saved corp. said maybe I'm my clan's Otro. Seems unlikely.
He saw bad-guy in bazaar with gun, pushed me behind him to protect me. Got slight bruise where he grabbed my arm. He's very strong. Asked if he would dance with me at party. He said maybe. Invited me to dinner and dancing instead - just us. I said yes.
F's birthday in 5 weeks. Must get present. Favourite colour brown.
Told F about leaving family. F told me story of Otro who was banished but saved corp. said maybe I'm my clan's Otro. Seems unlikely.
He saw bad-guy in bazaar with gun, pushed me behind him to protect me. Got slight bruise where he grabbed my arm. He's very strong. Asked if he would dance with me at party. He said maybe. Invited me to dinner and dancing instead - just us. I said yes.
F's birthday in 5 weeks. Must get present. Favourite colour brown.
111.09.10
Met Cia and Amy. Told them about F. Turns out F works for Cia. Oops. Accidentally let slip that he's teaching me to shoot. hope he doesn't get in trouble.
Cia invited me to a party. She's turning 21.
Amy said shooting people is easy - just need practice.
Cia invited me to a party. She's turning 21.
Amy said shooting people is easy - just need practice.
111.09.04
Met F again. He bought me a present. A gun. Not sure about that. He taught me to shoot a bit.
2 in stomach 1 in head makes person really dead.
Had to promise not to carry gun unless sure I would shoot someone.
2 in stomach 1 in head makes person really dead.
Had to promise not to carry gun unless sure I would shoot someone.
111.09.03
Started smiling at people randomly. Was fun. Almost made poor man drop his gun in shock. Cadari. Name is Fisk. Has stutter, but handsome. Was buying a gun for his boss. She's a podder called Ross. offered to teach me to shoot. Let me have a go with practice rounds. Guns are heavy.
F got killed when his pilot kidnapped. F had backup. Did experimental stuff to try to get memories of who did kidnap. Worked but F damaged. Nice smile.
F got killed when his pilot kidnapped. F had backup. Did experimental stuff to try to get memories of who did kidnap. Worked but F damaged. Nice smile.
111.09.01
Sneaking through bazaar making sure no blooder lady. Met old Caldari woman - Sarah? S trying to buy dress to go to dinner with Ulphus. Knows less than me. Friend of Amy. I help. She seems lonely. Gave her necklace to match dress.
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