112.01.24

C invited me to a Girls Night Out. Bought new dress for it. Lots of people there from her alliance. Met Eva and Else and CJ and Amie and Mata and Mary and some other people.

Gave Mata her necklace. Think she liked it.

Drank too much. C bought lots of Champagne and I got a drink with layers.

There was dancing. Lots of cake. And talk about sex with different flavours of icecream. Memory is a bit hazy there.

Didn't feel so good when I got back to my ship.

112.01.20

It was a good holiday. Relaxing. Got a bit sun-burnt. F had to rub lotion on. It was very nice to be looked after, but servants feel odd. I'm not sure I'm cut out to be rich.

Came back to find Benito gave me 3m isk for hauling for him. That was nice of him. I gave him self-judgement and he was honourable. I'll work with him again.

112.01.16

Going for a holiday. F surprised me with tickets. We're going to Matar. To a resort.

Had to buy a swimsuit. We're leaving tomorrow.

Time together with just me and him. No chasing off to help C.

That makes it sound worse than it was. I'm glad C is healthy now. It was right for F to go and help. But I'm glad he's back.

112.01.14

Got an approach from a new pilot. Benito. Moving some minerals for him in lowsec.

Seems ... nice. slightly awkward.

Had no idea what to charge him.

Have done the move. Will leave it up to him what to pay me.

112.01.12

Got a job offer to move some stuff in lowsec. Looks like bulk hauling. Not sure blockade runner is best choice but don't want to take mammoth down there.

Gave a price. Will see what happens.

No sign of space nun.

112.0.07

F was looking for things to do in Heimatar. I got AD to loan him a Raven. AD joked about offering F a job.

Thought about it a bit. Decided to mention it to F.

He said yes. Then I found out I had to fill out some paperwork, and sit a course on "cultural sensitivity" before Concord would let me hire F, cos he's Caldari.

Oh well, done now. F joined, and is wearing the patch I designed on the shoulder of his uniform.

Invited him to dinner. F joked about being taken advantage of by his boss. Will people really think that?

Still, nice dinner. Nice after dinner too.

112.01.06

Trip to Jita didn't pay off yet. Maybe I need to tweak the prices a bit?

C is really sick. She's had doctors all through. Her XO quit too. Helmi got put in the brig. F says she was almost going to shoot C's XO.

Met some strange lady in bazaar. Must remember to fix her medallion. Its bronze, shouldn't be too hard, but might look odd. I think she's a nun.

112.01.04

C went anyway. She ignored F. Something went wrong. I don't know what.

F says C's crew have been stood down. But that nobody died. H's been suspended for some reason - that means nobody's watching C! F isn't very happy.

Did a run to Jita just for me. If it works I'll make 30 million isk. Used to think it was a long way to go, but perhaps I'm getting used to it.

112.01.03

Met F in Rens yesterday. Told him about C's job. He's thinks I'm brave, and he's proud of me.

Things not good with C - lost her doctor and engineer. She's sick. Her crew is confused and C can't make decisions.

F says she could use a friend.

Today I went to visit C. She paid extra for the deliveries, since being super-careful made it take longer. I did get her to order Helmi not to call me "Maaam". C has a fever, and looks really sick, and tried to pay me twice, or three times, cos she forgot she already did.

She drank a little bit of water and then threw up bloody water.

Then she said she was leading a fleet out. I asked her not to. She should be in hospital. She can't remember what she did 5 minutes before. She could make a mistake and lose her ship and her crew.

She wouldn't listen to me.

After I left I sent mail to F, and A, and Mr Night. Asking them to stop her from flying when she's that sick. F said he'd try. A said there was nothing she could do.

I'm watching the news carefully. I hope nothing goes wrong.

112.01.01

Happy new year. Thought I'd try the run while people were off drinking. Still lots of people on gates, looking suspicious.

Dropped F's gift off to him in Haajinen. He wasn't there. Probably out working.

Delivered all C's stuff safely. Was quite stressful. If something went wrong, I couldn't have made it right.

Jump cloned back to F's station after the job. Wanted something fun. F had just left for Heimatar! He came back though.

He said he had to go home - to C's ship - it was urgent. He was needed.

C is still home for him. What does that make me?

He looked torn. Like he didn't want to have to choose between me and C. He said he's mine. He still has a feeling of duty though. That's part of him I don't want to change.

I told him to go.